A Thankful Heart...A Few Days Late

• Spending time with my family never ever gets old. Yes, I know that I am nineteen years old and plenty of people might think it's a little silly to enjoy time with family as much as I do. I am so thankful that I am one of the people that realizes the importance of family. I see so many people rebelling against their family (and actually, my brother is a prime example of this...) and wanting to stray as far away from their families as possible. They don't realize the time that you get to spend with your family is precious. I am SO thankful for my amazing parents, grandparents, and siblings, as well as my extended church family.....Being home over Thanksgiving break affirmed this for me. I love going out to breakfast with my daddy, helping him cook unhealthy treats (much to my momma's chagrin), watching TV with him (not so much the football games), and just spending time with one person that can always make me feel better. Talking to my momma and just seeing her hardworking spirit is such an encouragement to me. And oh my dear, my little sister has got to be my favorite person ever! She's just sooo funny and I'm thankful for our close relationship. I can't leave my little brother out. I worry about him and his decisions constantly, but I really savor the moments when he wants has to participate in family events. I am SO thankful for supportive parents backing me up and pushing me forward every step of the way. My grandparents are also a huge blessing in my life, especially the love that they show for each other. I watch as my grandma has selflessly taken care of my poppa since he was diagnosed with cancer even though she is in her eighties herself.


• Ok, so beyond my immediate family is my church family. Zebulon Baptist Church is my favorite!!! I just can't really express that strongly enough. On Sunday, when an older man fainted in the service, doctors/nurses/people with life-saving training ran to his rescue within a matter of seconds. Each member of the church brings their own gifts and talents to encourage the betterment of the entire fellowship of believers. I am especially excited about the Advent season at ZBC...We have the most amazing services during this time!


• I am thankful for my relationship with the Lord and the fact that He loves me enough to give His son for me is so humbling and overwhelming.


• There are many many many more things I am thankful for but I am only going to mention two more. These two things are the two things that I grumble the most about. Education & Work. I am very thankful that my family makes it possible for me to attend college to receive a higher education. Even though I would rather be home or somewhere other than school most of the time, I do realize how important it is for me to continue my education. I am also thankful that I have a job in these uncertain times. Granted, I don't like working all the time on breaks and dealing with sick and angry, impatient people....but I really do learn things from my job and I'm thankful that I even have one.

Oh Joy!

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this makes my week....

actually it makes my semester.


Also, half the campus knows because I frantically squealed and jumped up and down when I saw this....right beside the main academic building. oh well, I don't even care!!

Holy moments

I am a firm believer in that Holy moments come during the most unexpected moments sometimes. Like today, for instance, when a man from the church was clearly moved by something that brought him to the front during the invitation hymn. It is so refreshing to see a man cry. That sounds somewhat bad, I know...like I gloat over someone crying, but that's not at all what I mean. Picture this.....a man (in contrast to today's norm, where men are "supposed" to be tough and emotionless beings) coming to the front with tears in his eyes and a heart ready to receive the prayers and encouragement of a pastor. To me, this is moving in itself to see someone humbled enough to come before a large body of people that he loves and that love him to be nurtured.....And you think that wasn't enough...I peer back a few rows and see his child looking at his daddy being hugged and prayed with by my pastor. THAT is the way to show your child the importance of a church family and a relationship with Christ. And that's why, the newest item on my "Qualities of a Husband" list includes this : A man who is not afraid to cry.

PS.....I think my dream job would be to be an advocate for church...how can anyone think its NOT important to your spiritual life?!?

An Ungrateful Heart

I am missing the past, wishing the present away, and dreading the future.

I am not being thankful for memories, thankful for my time now, or trusting the future to the One who holds it in His hand.

I do realize this. I also realize its not good.

It makes me upset.

Apparently not enough to do anything about it.

Sometimes I just wonder what in the world I am doing.

How have I ended up at this place in my journey?

Steady hands, just take the wheel......

Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child

Is this what I'm unwilling to do? Surrender my burdens to the only One that can help me handle?

All I know is that if I don't get out of this phase soon, I am really going to regret it later.

I'm Surrendering....(Or Trying To)

.....the immense desire that I want to be as perfect as possible in my daily life...schoolwork, work, etc. Deep down in my heart, I KNOW that I will NEVER get there.....in all actuality, I won't even come close. I just want to succeed at everything I do....And by succeed, I mean blow everyone else and my own expectations out of the water. I have been giving in to a huge desire of the flesh-competition where I want to do everything in my power to make perfect grades, excel and stand out at work, church....etc. It is really bringing me down in a lot of ways. I think its one thing to want to be more like Christ....but a whole different ballgame when you let yourself get worked up and let down over wanting to be perfect in the ways of the world. So as of tonight, I "vow" to make a huge effort to back down and just go with the flow...and maybe, just maybe, accept a B.....

There Are No Words.....

Memories....ahhh:D

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Roomies:)

She gives me that look all the time.

Me and Whitney after dinner at Mi Casita
Run and Jump, Roomie!