Smile.

I just had a small epiphany. Okay, maybe I am being dramatic. Its a pretty important realization to me though. Ok, so I didn't have the best day today...it wasnt terrible but it was just kinda gloomy outside and rainy (I am thankful for the rain though!). I got stuck in a torrential downpour on my way back from class with NO umbrella, got soaked, didn't feel well, the list goes on.....and my day wasn't that great. Tonight, I still don't feel well and I have a mound of work to do. But I was just looking through my myspace pictures and realized how important a smile is. God has blessed me. I can smile, with an expression of insurrmountable joy on my face. There are so many people in this world that are torn and brought down by so many things--cheating, rape, depression, death....Sometimes I feel so helpless...like I cant do anything to help these people that are hurting. I have my smile though. On days when I don't feel like smiling, I could smile at someone and make them realize that someone cares. I am just so thankful that I can smile and I have reasons to smile (a Sovereign God that loves me more than I can even begin to imagine, Jesus who died for me, a fabulous church that I LOVE attending every week, my amazing family that I absolutely love more than anything in this world, wonderful friends that make my heart smile, getting an education, etc). Looking at those pictures just renewed my positiveness...def needed that! I need to be more thankful for my many reasons to smile and put forth an effort to share it with others more :)

roommate for sale:

NOTE: mean as a snake and might make you cry but someone with thicker skin than I can handle it.



Yep, that's what my lovely roomie thinks of me.

:)

Through the Ups and Downs of Life...

I haven't blogged in so long...I kinda regret it, but whatever. Let's see.....
-Blake and I broke up in October. Since then, we have had an on-again/off-again type relationship which has been super stressful...Right now we are doing good--trying to communicate more and all that fun stuff.
-When I went to SC for Thanksgiving, I noticed that my poppa wasn't doing great...when we went back for Christmas, it was even more obvious. It broke my heart so much that I cried almost all the way home (which is a three hour trip roughly)...Soon after that, we found out that he has cancer...a tumor in his spine that won't react to chemo or surgery since its against the bone. When we went to see them last weekend, he seemed depressed. He didn't really perk up when he saw us which was highly unusual. I have just tried to put everything in God's hands...praying that he doesn't suffer and that he will find his strength through the power of God's word and prayers and Christian fellowship. He is going to give radiation a try, which has a good chance of shrinking the tumor but not completely. This also has a chance of harming other organs in his body but the doctor was optimistic about the potential of radiation. I'm also worried about my grandma who is having to care for him around the clock. Anyway, I just pray that God's will is done....I am doing much better about this news than I was at first. It didn't help that I was away from home at school when I just wanted to be there with my family.
-Christmas/Advent at ZBC was amazing as always and uplifting as well. I worked full-time hours throughout Christmas break which was somewhat aggravating but I did it and tried to remain positive.
-This new semester is harder than last and I'm just trying to make it through and pass everything. I am experiencing my least favorite prof ever this semester and its a struggle just making it through 50 minutes three times a week.
-I'm making more friends this semester.
-I fall more in love with Jesus everyday and I am still amazed by his grace...and I AM GOING to do better about this blogging thing :)