Through the Ups and Downs of Life...

I haven't blogged in so long...I kinda regret it, but whatever. Let's see.....
-Blake and I broke up in October. Since then, we have had an on-again/off-again type relationship which has been super stressful...Right now we are doing good--trying to communicate more and all that fun stuff.
-When I went to SC for Thanksgiving, I noticed that my poppa wasn't doing great...when we went back for Christmas, it was even more obvious. It broke my heart so much that I cried almost all the way home (which is a three hour trip roughly)...Soon after that, we found out that he has cancer...a tumor in his spine that won't react to chemo or surgery since its against the bone. When we went to see them last weekend, he seemed depressed. He didn't really perk up when he saw us which was highly unusual. I have just tried to put everything in God's hands...praying that he doesn't suffer and that he will find his strength through the power of God's word and prayers and Christian fellowship. He is going to give radiation a try, which has a good chance of shrinking the tumor but not completely. This also has a chance of harming other organs in his body but the doctor was optimistic about the potential of radiation. I'm also worried about my grandma who is having to care for him around the clock. Anyway, I just pray that God's will is done....I am doing much better about this news than I was at first. It didn't help that I was away from home at school when I just wanted to be there with my family.
-Christmas/Advent at ZBC was amazing as always and uplifting as well. I worked full-time hours throughout Christmas break which was somewhat aggravating but I did it and tried to remain positive.
-This new semester is harder than last and I'm just trying to make it through and pass everything. I am experiencing my least favorite prof ever this semester and its a struggle just making it through 50 minutes three times a week.
-I'm making more friends this semester.
-I fall more in love with Jesus everyday and I am still amazed by his grace...and I AM GOING to do better about this blogging thing :)